chucky-larms

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It Takes Two by chucky-larms, literature

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Conformity by chucky-larms, literature

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Conformity

fuck me up, throw me down don't let me make a single sound do it out of love for me do what you think is best for me now blind me, rip out my eyes so i can't see all of your lies tie me down so i can't run away tell me all that i can do now is pray because only god can save me now no one else could love someone so foul tell me everything that i believe is wrong that everyone is happy and getting along obscure my heart, change my mind now my very core is impossible to find you have me where you want me mute and paralyzed, blindly hypnotized i'm everything you want me to be broken and free of sin thank you for helping me final

.:Backstabber:. by chucky-larms, literature

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Watercolor by chucky-larms, literature

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Watercolor

I look into your eyes This is such bliss I can't wait to be with you Can't wait for that next kiss. The moon can fade The stars can fall As long as I'm with you I don't care at all. But fate has stolen The love we just found We both must leave To different places abound. And so I decide In order to remember I'll paint your face To look at forever. As I paint I picture what I know Kind eyes, perfect teeth And I feel so low. I realize that While I was in love You were just playing I was never enough. And as I gaze At the picture in my hand My happiness slips through Like fingers holding sand. Because I used watercolo

Don't Look Down by chucky-larms, literature

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Don't Look Down

It's so easy To fall into what once was I hold my breath Hide my mind from the cause. These wings are breaking They had been so strong I thought I was ready I guess I was wrong. It takes time, they say For such deep wounds to heal But remaining will be a scar An eternal reminder that will never seal. I have found That as I fall If I ignore the ground It's like I'm flying above it all. And maybe that's it Just what I was doing before I never had wings I simply ignored the floor.

Ashen Dreams by chucky-larms, literature

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Ashen Dreams

All my hope All my desire Nothing but tinder For your roaring fire All my wishes All my dreams Turned to ash Dancing to my screams Flying into the night Black on black Now they're so hard to see I can't get them back You crackle and pop A bright laughing flame I'm burning in it I only have myself to blame Hell is what you make it I chose to burn I know my lesson now But it's too late to learn.

Joy of Life by chucky-larms, literature

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Joy of Life

Can't you see? It hurts me so much to see that you feel what I felt. After going through it, I would NEVER wish such torture upon any other. For a time, I wanted THEM to feel this, for THEM to bleed tears like I have. But as the pain worsened, I knew that no one should feel this way....but so many do. Like you. And now I cry those clear empty tears of grace, ones that could never embody the depth of emotions I have. Is it selfish of me to keep my wounds shut, to let the wall lay between us? I'm so scared of this. Even if I chose to see again, I don't think I could. My mind has set such limits upon my actions that whatever I do, there

Angel Falling Above by chucky-larms, literature

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Angel Falling Above

I read your poem. How could you say those things? I can see them, right on your back You have your own wings. They lift you up They never let you fall Although you feel low, trust me You haven't reached bottom at all. So many people Feel all alone But what they don't see Is that they have wings of their very own. Maybe no one feels safe Maybe I know why They can't see what's on their back They think they're gonig to die. But what I'm saying What I'm trying to get through You are your own angel Nobody else, just you. You can choose Whatever fate you desire Fly to the heavens above Or fall into the burning fire. Hope wil

World Without White by chucky-larms, literature

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World Without White

It's so cold I shiver up and down Maybe if I try, I can see A breath of thoughts exhaled through my mind. But ever since the last time When I froze and fell asleep I've kept myself warm And now I want to wake up. Shed these clothes Bare my soul again Feel the night air Caress cold fingers over my skin. It's a long way to Heaven It's a far shot to Hell I'll just wait here Staring at this black and white world. These thoughts look like clouds Floating from my mind I did it, I exhaled Now the white is gone.

Muse of Silence by chucky-larms, literature

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Muse of Silence

Then it was dark A stillness in the air I don't know where to go And I can't help but care. Every time I move I know I get farther away From waht, I don't know There's nothing I can say. I'm feeling my way in the dark I'm listening to a muted song My senses can't help me But I know everything I do is wrong. The black is endless The quiet undying Isolation is out of reach... I feel her presence through my crying. She sings forever Always at my ear The Muse of Silence Afflicting tear after tear.

Unrequitted Pain by chucky-larms, literature

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Unrequitted Pain

A touch of torture A word of fear Your love is terrible Lurking ever near. Step by step You set your stage Such small increments Each a bar to my cage. Next time, I say I'll draw the line But with such subtelty The once definite boundary is now so fine. I want to run Unleash these broken screams But the cage is here Holding my silence and my dreams. What can I say What can I do I close my eyes to think All I see is you. Don't touch me Please open your eyes See your unrequited love Bestow anguish upon my cries.

Manifestation by chucky-larms, literature

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Manifestation

I started whole My life clear as glass But pain struck And it all came to pass. Maybe if I weren't so caring Maybe if it hadn't mattered Then when I was hit I wouldn't have shattered. Shards falling All pieces of me They fall to the ground Where can I be? I search and search Please, let me find Not my body, that doesn't matter Just myself, my mind. One piece glitters One shining through them all It rises to me Answering my desperate call. I throw myself into it Let the light shine through Now I'm whole again Body and soul anew. But now I have broken Now I'm back here My sides are sharp Just try to come near.

Within A Dream by chucky-larms, literature

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Within A Dream

I want to love To open my broken heart But it's too hard to go back So you and I must part. I have an idea On how love should feel But I never get it When will the emotion be real? I want the fairy tale I don't want a single doubt I'd rather be alone than hurt So I'll go without. Alone again When will I find you? My heart breaks with desolation I just don't know what to do. And you will remain hidden Never really being what you seem But that's ok, now I know You're only within a dream.

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The Musician by chucky-larms, literature

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The Musician

Eyes as blank as her soul She plays a song for her heart with a hole A symphony of desolation fills the air The watching crowd applauds her for her despair. Tears run down her vacant face Her hair hides most of her disgrace And still her ballad plays strong Still the crowd listens to the derelict song. Her face sags and her skin is ashen The crowd is entranced by a song so void of passion They feel the oblivion inside themselves, deep down Only she is consumed by it and is about to drown. Her obscurity has made her deaf and blind She cannot hear her own song, but she doesn't mind Because she still is playing her alluring piece

The Musician

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About chucky-larms

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United States
Deviant for 20 years
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Current Residence: Ohio
Favourite genre of music: everything but country
Shell of choice: Conk

Favourite Visual Artist

orange-fizzes (my sister!!!)

Favourite Movies

Girl Interrupted, Labyrinth, The Hours, Requiem for a Dream, Titanic, Zoolander, Eternal Sunshine

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Dresden Dolls, Muse, The Hush Sound, Julia Kent, Adele, Regina Spektor, Shiny Toy Guns, Evanescence

Favourite Writers

JK Rowling, Orson Scott Card, Virginia Woolf, Sylvia Plath, Charles Dickens

Favourite Games

Golden Sun: The Lost Age

Favourite Gaming Platform

GBSP?

Tools of the Trade

pen and paper...pencil if theres not a pen

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Whatever strikes my fancy

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chucky-larms

Jul 10, 2008

one day

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it's funny the way things work. when you feel up you're happy and carefree, like nothing can go wrong, but when you fall down it seems like you'll never get up again. the only cure for emotions seems to be time. as long as you can make it to another day, there's an opportunity for happiness. time also helps you to forget things, whether they are good or bad memories. a few old friends have contacted me recently, and it's crazy how far out of my mind they had been. it was like rediscovering parts of myself. just saying hi and catching up--it brought back old memories and feelings. mainly the good. usually i only remember the good memories, if

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chucky-larms

May 12, 2008

worth it?

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i can't hold on to me wonder what's wrong with me.... ~evanescence basically describes me right now.  i am so depressed right now i can barely stand it. i want to kill myself, but i'm afraid that i'll hurt someone if i do that.  that's all that is holding me back right now.  i'm afraid that ending my pain will cause someone else pain. yea, i know. big of me to hold off suicide to keep others happy. what the hell is wrong with me? i know being this sad is just fucking annoying. i know that, and i dont want to be that girl. but i am. and it's literally tearing me apart. cutting sounds like a joy, crying happens every hour, and i can barely

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chucky-larms

Mar 12, 2008

the problem

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it's hard to choose the things in your life that you really value.  they come and go; every moment you have a viable set of priorities for your life that may not be the same the next moment.  it's only around exam time that i find that i truly value my grades in school...an A means that i deserve to be in my field of study, and anything less than a B makes me feel like i have to rethink my entire life.  but that's only when i have big exams. usually i worry about friends and boys and other various things.  my priorites are what define me. when one is shaken or i fail to fulfill one, it's like my life is over. i guess that makes my very being