it's funny the way things work. when you feel up you're happy and carefree, like nothing can go wrong, but when you fall down it seems like you'll never get up again. the only cure for emotions seems to be time. as long as you can make it to another day, there's an opportunity for happiness.

time also helps you to forget things, whether they are good or bad memories. a few old friends have contacted me recently, and it's crazy how far out of my mind they had been. it was like rediscovering parts of myself. just saying hi and catching up--it brought back old memories and feelings. mainly the good. usually i only remember the good memories, if enough time has passed. why remember the bad stuff? it's pointless.

things like that remind me that if i don't put myself out there, if i dont try, i won't have more good memories to go back to. i can't fall into myself. i need to keep moving, even when i feel frozen solid. it will pay off in the future, however much it sucks right now. i'll be able to look back and smile.